I have been unable to write about anything that has been going on my life for the last few days…. maybe i am having a bloggers(writers) block….
Anyways, I wanted to try to explain to my ‘friends’ about something that has been bugging me for the last few days. Firstly, I have to apologize for being sooo cynical the last few days… besides that this post is gonna try to set out a misunderstanding most of my ‘friends’ have about me.
My sarcastic humor…
You’re Totally Sarcastic
You sarcastic? Never! You’re as sweet as a baby bunny.
Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue – and you aren’t afraid to use it.
And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.
Yup, this what a survey had to tell about me…. And I think its true but I think I should try to explain why i am sarcastic.
Firstly, I use sarcastic comments as a way of making conversation with people. It is easily to talk to people when ur sarcastic cos making fun of things or people is always easy. It is always easy to see mistakes and faults in people than their good qualities. I know it is a bad habit but then different people have their own techniques to socialize and this is mine.
Secondly, it is my defence mechanism…… no matter how cocky I am on the outside everyone (even me) has self-esteem or self-confidence issues. Hence, making ironic or sarcastic comments about other people – which I believe reduces their self-esteem – makes me feel important even for that second and gives a sense of self-confidence.
Finally, this sense of humor fits perfectly into my philosophy that i shouldn’t get close to people. Most people find me as ass due to my comments about everything. And no one wants to be a friend with an ass right?? so yeah it fits perfectly.
Therefore, the people I meet should not get offend by what I say. For the record, I am not trying to bring you down and tarnish your image perceived by other people around you. My behavior is merely due to some personal issues I have with my self-esteem.
I know that the true cause of low self esteem is our own self, which is our ego, who when told that you are stupid and made a mistake, takes that personally because it lives in the illusion that we (I) should be capable of anything or everything. When we live in illusion, the less we can see reality. The less you see reality, the more mistakes you will make. Surprisingly, my sarcastic humors allows me to live in this illusionary world.
However, reality is basically what is going on at the moment. If we could see that we would act and respond correctly. Because we have the illusion and believe a lie about our self, we are blinded when things happen and we miss opportunities. We do not respond to opportunities or events appropriately and so we make mistakes and are told and feel like we are incompetent because we have the illusion in our own mind that we should be perfect, and this just perpetuates itself. I am starting to see the problems of being so persimistic and ironic and trying to give up on these habits.
I am not expecting people to understand me or what i am going through…. But this is just my futile attempt to provide some insight into my head.