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Like A RainDrop In The Desert

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The year was 2009, 2nd of May around 5 something in the morning:

Sitting at Cha-Cha-Cha (Budapest) talking about all the great memories we had over the last few months only opened up more emotional discomfort. And then you cried, those tears leaving me confused and helpless. This was never meant to be serious. You knew about what I have been through, how its been and how it was going to turn out. Yet, we gave too much…..

If only things could be different.  I would risk it all because of a girl like you because end of the day isn’t that what life is about. And hope you know that I meant it this time, every single word – these were meaningful well-selected words and not the 14 February 2011 kind. Maybe, if everything works out – in a year or two we can try this all over again”.

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Misplaced Faith

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HandsHoldingFeetFor a 7 year old, his dad is like everything his bedtime stories depict; 10 Foot Super Hero capable of defeating every bad guy in this universe and looking irreproachable doing so.

For some, this imaginary vision is short lived while for others it is only illusive. The last week gave me an opportunity to reflect on that part of my life, which had gone pass so briskly.

Growing up, we expect so much; whether these expectations are inherent /ingrained in us or acquired through our environment eludes me. But what I do know is that these expectations do arise and with no regrets we impose them on everyone around us.

With my comprehension of Keynesian Economics and String Theory at the age of 8; I realized the fallacy of these expectations. To understand that these expectations are never unilateral but rather reciprocal.

“Never expect what thou cannot bestow onto others”

At this juncture, we have to decide “selfishness” or “selflessness”. Choosing the former allows us to live our own lives without having any expectations on others (hence no obligations towards others). Choosing the latter demands sacrifice when netted may be more detrimental to you than good (good for you:the benefits received from our expectations been satisfied).

(un)fortunately, I chose the former; seeking selfishness and self-interest so that I wouldn’t be the seven year old boy who every single night sits on the doorstep mulling over why his 10 Foot Super Hero never comes home.